Ave Atque Vale

I’m taking the month of April off from this site. In early May, I’ll decide what comes next.

This has been a terrible month. I lost a lot that had meaning for me, and I don’t fully trust my judgment right now because of it. I’ve said before that you are responsible for where you put your attention and your limited time. I’ve had to ask myself whether the amount of work I’ve put in here is justified.

I suspect I may have done all I can in this venue—or in writing more generally. But that’s exactly the kind of conclusion I don’t want to rush into while things are still unsettled. So I’m stepping away to think.

I’ve also been dealing with a creeping misanthropy. I’ve been withdrawing from people, from social contact, from a lot of things that used to matter. And if I’m not an actor, or a writer anymore, then I’m left with a more difficult question: what am I?

“Whoever fights monsters should see to it that he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.”
— Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil (1886)

I have promised you that I will work hard to avoid wasting your time, and that the purpose of this project was, primarily, to talk seriously to adults about serious things. Perhaps I’ve done that, and now I am forced, by writers’ block and creeping anhedonia, to take a serious break. I will be around from time to time. I won’t be posting, but I may respond to comments, just to let you know I value your participation in this project.

Peace and Joy be with you all. And thanks again.
Kit